Favourite and Meaningful Song to me....

最好 有生一日都愛下去
但誰人 能將戀愛當做終生興趣

生活 其實旨在找到個伴侶
面對現實 熱戀很快變長流細水

可惜我 不智或僥倖
對火花天生敏感

不過 兩隻手拉得太緊
愛到過了界那對愛人
同時亦最易變成一對敵人

也許相愛很難
就難在其實雙方各有各寄望 怎麼辦

要單戀都難
受太大的禮會內疚 卻也無力歸還

也許不愛不難
但如未成佛升仙也會怕 愛情前途黯淡

愛不愛都難
未快樂先有責任 給予對方面露歡顏

得到浪漫 又要有空間
得到定局 卻怕去到終站
然後付出多得到少不介意豁達
又擔心 有人看不過眼

無論熱戀中失戀中
都永遠記住第一戒
別要張開雙眼

What do I feel?

Yesterday a close friend asked, that girl kindda pretty and talented. Is she attached? I've asked if he's interested. He answered kind of...I smile and said, yes she is a beautiful girl, a very beautiful girl and she's still available. He looks surprise and interested. Looks like she has another admirer.

(The girl? Is the one I love...)

Things comes and goes,
Why wouldn't it stay?
Why wouldn't it be secure?
It's really difficult,
It's really heart breaking,
Just wish and hope,
Wish something good to happen,
Hope something better in future...

(lost 2 business at the same time)

...

Life - Death
Love - Hate
Happy - Sad
Friend - Stranger,
Relax - Stress
Win - Loose
Woman - Man
Young - Old
Rich - Poor
Single - Married
Simple - Complicated
Successful - Fail
Play - Stop
Working - Sleeping
Morning - Night
Laughing - Crying
War - Peace
Bright - Dark
.....etc

All things has positive but at the same time it has negative...Its the balance of life in everythings....Nature....

Lost or Stolen?

Was angry and upset this morning. The 6 puppies which are at my office had gone. Thought it has been located by the mother but it seems that it was looking for her young ones too...We been asking the people around but none of them know where it all went. Are they still alive? Are they being stolen? I wonder....

It's kindda upset, looking at the mother, searching high and low for her children. A mother who lost 6 children in a night. The puppies are still very young. Barely walk and their eyes are still close tight.

Wish and hope that you all are in good hands.
Farewell my 6 little puppies.

Condolenses to my family members....

Got a bad news yesterday. My cousin sister gave birth to a baby girl last 2 weeks but unfortunately she passed away after 10 days of struggling. She was borned with a hole in her heart. A name that I haven't know. A niece that I haven't seen. News that I heard alot from outsider and read from news paper, but wouldn't think that it'll happen within my family members. Its sad.

A wonderful life, that she didn't get a chance to experience. Growing up, being love by parents and family member, fall in love and growing old with the one you love. Maybe this is what you call faith. Nothing more I could do and say, a simple word to my cousin sister and a niece that I haven't got a chance to see....

To my cousin sister...

The Road ahead may seem long...
But let faith take you by the hand
and guide you through these difficult times.
Remember...
This too shall pass.

To my niece...

To the world you are just a baby
with wide eyed innocence.

As we pray with heavy hearts
you portrayed courage, strength and determination
that never wavered.

To the world you are just a baby
with wide eyed innocence.

As they watched helplessly
you grew weaker and weaker your spirit never waning,
An angel guided on a painful dark path.

To the world you are just a baby
with wide eyed innocence.

While we rejoice in the healing
you rose above the injustice that was given
to shine more brilliantly than ever before.

To the world you are more than a child
but a true hero of life!

Although I haven't met you, but you'll be always in the hearts of your uncles and aunties...

The Rescue Mission...

Last Satuday 10th June 2006, a stray dog near my office car park gave birth to 6 cute little puppies. They are really adorable. Seeing the place is so dirty and wet, we took an empty box and place those puppy in. Afraid that the mother would attack us, we waited patiently till the mother went off. One by one I carefully carried them in the box. They are so soft and fragile. Each day I'll provide some food for the mother to eat, hopefully it would have enough strength to feed their young ones. Would like to find a good home for them.

To those who are interested to keep the puppies, you are welcome to write your contacts on the comment box. Bare in mind you have to be loving, caring and treat it as part of your family to take care of them.

Hopefully the 6 little puppies grow up safely, healthy and happy.

I feel...

...there's a barrier or a huge gap between 2 of us. Felt there's a line between us that you've wouldn't allow yourself and me to crossover. I know you do care for me but you wouldn't allow yourself to do so, in action wise. You know how I felt but you wouldn't want to respond or how to respond because you are afraid. Afraid that each step you take might hurt me. Recently, when I sit down alone and think, I started laughing and heartache too. Laughing because, a simple likeness between 2 person can be so complicated. Heartache, because you've been controlling your action and feelings towards me, as well as mine to you.

I don't wheather you realize, you are not yourself when you with me alone or with few friends. But I realize. I start asking myself, am I too sensitive? I might be abit too sensitive, but somehow you do change your atitude towards me.

If you got the chance to read this blog, I wanted you to know that please don't change yourself towards me. It's heartache to see that you are not really you when you see me. If you change to let your heart feel better. I'll be more than happy to help you. If seeing me reminds you of your mistake (if you consider what you've done is a mistake, not that I know off) and felt heartache, I rather not to see you. I love you the way you are. The person itself.

I'm sorry I can't stop my heart from loving you. I know it would be difficult you. I really hope I can ease your heart. I've have promise myself and except the fact, to love you with a open and with a happy heart, eventhough we can't be together. Will try my best to cut down on my cigaratte, as promise. : )

Hope that can have dinner with you 1 day. Just 2 of us.

Take good care....*hugs & kisses & white rose* for you, my princess....

My time....

Been quiet busy today. Finally finish up the outstanding work.
Sometimes to certain people, they'll think I'm a person who like to drag my work to last minute. I admit that. But do they know most of the time I perform better when it's last minute. I think better and I work better too. A friend told me that I'm very bad in time management. I'm not bad in time management, its just that sometimes I prefer to do the things that I like, things which I consider its more important than my work, eventhough its just only accompany someone to dinner, buying things or even working. But do they know or do they understand?...

Lately....

Hey, how are you? Haven't been talking to you lately. How you've been? I'm kindda free these days. Free for a movie or dinner? Sometimes these are some simple question that I wanted to ask her but sometimes its just so hard to let it out. Or I'm rather too afraid to ask. Afraid that my questions are unattended or rejected or its useless to ask because I've already know the answer.

I'm trying to build back a friendship that we once had. I know it'll be difficult for me and for her. Still trying my very best to do so. The past cannot be change but the future we can create. Still trying to control my deepest feeling. Will keep on trying my best to control, for her happiness as well as mine too.

Alot of people says, that being together with friends is better than being with your partner. At 1st I would agree half of the statement but as time goes by I would agree more. I've seen the happiness in her when she's with friends around. I've seen it. I've felt it too. When I see her smile, deep in my heart I smile too. Something I realize myself, I'm not a good partner.
Not to anyone as well as to her.

"Take care and becareful everywhere you go. Sleep tight and sweet dreams every night. My guardian angel will keep you safe and warm through out the day and night" : )

My Memories 1...

Been really tired lately. Constantly feeling dizzy and having major migrain. Some say I'm having low blood pressure, but I think I'm kindda lack of sleep. Been working too hard. Haven't have the balance of life.

Read a blog, asking wheather have watched someone close to me sleep? I did. Its very sweet indeed. Its an explainable feeling I had. At that time, no matter how tired and exausted I am, when I sees her sleep soundly, it eventualy kill my tiredness and all the frustration I had. She somehow taught me the reason I'm working for and its all worth it although its just a silents one.

'My guardian angel, please keep my princess away from all harm. Keep her company whenever she needs one. Thank you'

Living The Life You Want...

As you grow up, sometimes its not the matter of want or don't want. Its the matter of things you have to do wheather like it or not.

You are leaving the job people dying to have because many people only see the outer beauty of your company. They haven't gone what u've been through. If you think you couldn't see your future in the company or don't feel any achivement, do move on.

Career...Plays a big part of your life. Its a thing that you wanna achive. Some may consider it's the purpose of living or life. Some may consider it's a focus point or what you want to become.

I believe all parents wanted their children to live happily, healthy and safe. They wanted you to choose your own life that. They wouldn't expect anything more from their children. What we can do is do our best, live our life happily and take care of them as much as we can.

Take good care of yourself, which means taking good care of your family. U are not living alone in this world. U have responsibilities towards yourself, your family and friends.

Everyone want to live their life that they want. But how many of them can fully live their own life? You can choose living a life that you want but at the same time you have to be practical too.

There is no wrong or right in living. Its up to you to decide wheather is this the path you want to choose. Is this the risk you want to take or the risk you dare to take. Once choosen, you have to face all the conciquences that comes with no regrets. Only to learn from mistake. Only to move forward. This is the experience of living.

I know by saying is always far more easy than to implement. To get it started is the hardest of all. But remember you have friends and family to help and support you. Give it a try when every opportunity comes, be it a job, a relationship or study. At least you've try.

But again, this is just my opinion and POV. Some people might think differently.