Who resonance

抬头望星空一片静
我独行 夜雨渐停
无言是此刻的冷静
笑问谁 肝胆照应
风急风也清 告知变幻是无定
未明是我苦笑却未停
不信命 只信双手去苦拼
矛盾是无力去暂停
可会知 我心里困倦满腔
夜阑静 问有谁共鸣
从前是天真不冷静
爱自由 或会忘形
明白是得失总有定
去或留 轻松对应
孤单中颤抖 可知我实在难受
问谁愿意失去了自由
想退后 心里知足我拥有
前去亦全力去寻求
风也清 晚空中我问句星
夜阑静 问有谁共鸣
孤单中颤抖 可知我实在难受
问谁愿意失去了自由
想退后 心里知足我拥有
前去亦全力去寻求
风也清 晚空中我问句星
夜阑静 问有谁共鸣

Today 20th June 2010

Been busy month. Good friends broke up after 18 year. Keep asking me what shall she do to forget? Forget and stand up on her own? What shall she do? Does she need to get out from the country?...
I'm her only friend. I am the only one that gives her support. I am the only one that knows. I am her consultant....

Am I capable to advise? Am I giving the right advice?... I myself still love her. Still love and care after 5 years. I myself still can't forget after 5 years. Its just that I occupied myself with activities and not let myself think. Am I still avoiding?....

The day I lost my health is the day I lost my love too....

Without my health, I couldn't love anyone....

Today 7th May 2010

Been busy day. Running around since morning till now. Getting tired. Physically but not mentally.
Trying to coop up but body resist. 4 more months to go. 4 more months to know if its serious or can be control. Still counting the days....

Migraines..

Today 5th May 2010.

Feeling more and more tired these days. Multiple times of migraines. Is it the weather or me myself?...Is it a symptom? Sooner or later is just the same to me...:-)

Today 21st April 2010

Today 21st April 2010

A lot of work. A lot of stress. Have to control and release stress. Stress will worsen my health.
Still counting the days. Don't know to aspect it sooner of later. Just live the fullest of everyday..
:-)

Its so difficult...

Today 17th April 2010

Why is life so difficult? So many restrictions. So many rules.
Tired. Can I still hold on to 6 months by myself?...

Will I heal in 6monts?

Today 16th April 2010.

Sometimes, not to know is better to know. Did a rough medical check up and got to know some shocking news. In the mind of doctors, its serious but in the mind of surrounding people, it's another illness. But to me I'm blank. I know I need to heal. For my family, my friends and the one I love. 6 months. My target. If not, I'll have to seek for more medication...