Moment of My Life

Who resonance

2011-07-15T18:17:00.000+08:00

抬头望星空一片静
我独行夜雨渐停
无言是此刻的冷静
笑问谁肝胆照应
风急风也清告知变幻是无定
未明是我苦笑却未停
不信命只信双手去苦拼
矛盾是无力去暂停
可会知我心里困倦满腔
夜阑静问有谁共鸣
从前是天真不冷静
爱自由或会忘形
明白是得失总有定
去或留轻松对应
孤单中颤抖可知我实在难受
问谁愿意失去了自由
想退后心里知足我拥有
前去亦全力去寻求
风也清晚空中我问句星
夜阑静问有谁共鸣
孤单中颤抖可知我实在难受
问谁愿意失去了自由
想退后心里知足我拥有
前去亦全力去寻求
风也清晚空中我问句星
夜阑静问有谁共鸣

Today 20th June 2010

2010-06-20T03:31:00.002+08:00

Been busy month. Good friends broke up after 18 year. Keep asking me what shall she do to forget? Forget and stand up on her own? What shall she do? Does she need to get out from the country?...
I'm her only friend. I am the only one that gives her support. I am the only one that knows. I am her consultant....

Am I capable to advise? Am I giving the right advice?... I myself still love her. Still love and care after 5 years. I myself still can't forget after 5 years. Its just that I occupied myself with activities and not let myself think. Am I still avoiding?....

The day I lost my health is the day I lost my love too....

Without my health, I couldn't love anyone....

Today 7th May 2010

2010-05-08T00:47:00.002+08:00

Been busy day. Running around since morning till now. Getting tired. Physically but not mentally.
Trying to coop up but body resist. 4 more months to go. 4 more months to know if its serious or can be control. Still counting the days....

Migraines..

2010-05-04T20:53:00.003+08:00

Today 5th May 2010.

Feeling more and more tired these days. Multiple times of migraines. Is it the weather or me myself?...Is it a symptom? Sooner or later is just the same to me...:-)

Today 21st April 2010

2010-04-22T00:55:00.001+08:00

Today 21st April 2010

A lot of work. A lot of stress. Have to control and release stress. Stress will worsen my health.
Still counting the days. Don't know to aspect it sooner of later. Just live the fullest of everyday..
:-)

Its so difficult...

2010-04-18T00:59:00.002+08:00

Today 17th April 2010

Why is life so difficult? So many restrictions. So many rules.
Tired. Can I still hold on to 6 months by myself?...

Will I heal in 6monts?

2010-04-16T13:15:00.002+08:00

Today 16th April 2010.

Sometimes, not to know is better to know. Did a rough medical check up and got to know some shocking news. In the mind of doctors, its serious but in the mind of surrounding people, it's another illness. But to me I'm blank. I know I need to heal. For my family, my friends and the one I love. 6 months. My target. If not, I'll have to seek for more medication...

Feelings...

2010-01-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

At first it was boring,
Then it was lonely,
Then it went to depression,
Now....boring + lonely + depression = empty...
A walking human without a soul...
Why am I feeling this?
I have friends that will take care of me...
I have a great job....
What else is missing???
Why am I felling more n more empty???

...

2008-07-01T16:10:00.001+08:00

Felt so near...yet so far...

My recent favourite song

2008-05-14T21:37:00.001+08:00

"Any Other World"

In any other world
You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone
But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defences

So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in [x2]
Say goodbye

In any other world
You could tell the difference

Just writing...

2008-05-03T02:57:00.003+08:00

Hmmm...long time I've abandon my blog..been extremely busy these few months...I've never never thought that I have to produce, direct, oversee script, editing and graphic, all at the same time. And 1 more, most importing matter, entertain my client with my smile..even though I'm drop dead tied and frustrated. Hahaha...

They are now thinking of season 3 by end of the year...OMG!!!...

Now..

2008-02-29T19:07:00.002+08:00

Something, when u get it, its trouble, when u don't get it, it's also a trouble.
To get or not to get. How much u gonna lost?

Holiday in Bali!

2008-02-21T16:54:00.004+08:00

At last...holiday after 1 year full force of working. Bali an affordable place for mid level like me hahaha...Nothing much to say, just great holiday, great company and great food.

This is call gado campur. (I think..hehehe)

German Pork Chop with mushroom and fried patato...yum yum ;)

This is the best..Bebek Bengil (fried dirty duck)

Pork Ribs.

German Sosej

Above pictures are only small part of them. There are alot more to come.

Happy New Year!

2008-01-01T15:38:00.001+08:00

Welcome 2008! Another has gone, another has begin. What will happen in 2008? Will it still be the same as every other year? Hopefully not...

End 2007 begining of 2008!!!

2007-12-29T18:00:00.000+08:00

Christmas has just ended, another will begin soon, 2008. Lots of things happen in 2007. Family, work, relationship, friends. But mostly work.:) Lets see what happened in year 2007...

Moxim House
- Found some new clients
- Added another editing suite
- Set an new audio room
- Got a camera and tripod for production
- Added a new staff for editing and creative
- Created own show reel
- Got introduced to overseas :)

Friends
- Got married
- Newborns (my kai chais and kai luis)
- Got heart broken
- Got divorce
- Lost job
- Takes good care of me when I'm not well - hehehe!!!
(Thanks - Pat, Dog, Cavin, Elaine, Leng Mui, Catt and Yee San)

Family
- Healthy and Well :)
- Got new comer (niece will arrive Mid 2008 - yahoo!!)
- Hardly see me around

Myself
- Involve in full production
- Directed an Info programme
- Travel to 2 Islands for holiday :)
- Added some technical knowledge
- Exercise (martial art - twice a week and tracking - once a week)
- Slight cut down on cigarettes - hehehe
- Sleep more
- Got a color hand phone - Hahaha!!
- Got stolen some precious stuff :(
- Getting less patient
- Got 'Aiya Low Tau and Low Ma Chi' (Douglas and Pat) Kekeke

The rest, still the same :)...This year been a pretty good year in terms of relation with friends and family. Will write a check list, and try to achieve next year.

One always bother me, recession time....Only could prepare for the worst couldn't think much...

Happy New Year! Next year will be a better year!!!

Myself....

2007-12-09T03:55:00.000+08:00

S**T! having insomia. F**K!!!! Have to solve as soon as possible. Have to do something about it. Aaaarrrrggggg!!!

F*** Up...

2007-12-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

busy...busy...busy...tired of working these days. Couldn't really rest properly when I have the time to. Aiyyeerrr...what do I want? hhhmmmm...

Enchanted...

2007-11-30T01:56:00.001+08:00

Saw enchanted last week. Not really my choice but thinking what the hell, the si tau po wanted to watch. Hahahaa...Hey, came out not bad. We were laughing through out the movie. Well, almost the entire movie I could say. It's a very simple and relax movie. It's reality and fantasy mix together. In fantasy, when any pretty girl sings, beautiful animals will sings together or will appear at the background, only to make the environment looks sweet, happy and the animals will help to do some work. But in reality, its still has animals around the back ground, but those animals are rats, bugs, ants and others...kekekeke.

Aiyeerr...dun wanna explain so much..just watch la...hahaha

Decided...

2007-11-14T08:56:00.000+08:00

Just decided not to attend the 24th SEA GAMES. Its because due to my tight budget.
Although I would very much like to go, but I have to be practical. Hhhmmm....Maybe next time. But definately will attend the World Shorinji Kempo Competition 2009 in Jakarta. Hopefully by that time will get my Black Belt hehehe...

Thinking...

2007-11-13T15:20:00.000+08:00

*Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
cause its not my fault
I know Ive been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord Im doing all I can
To be a better man

Once youve found that lover
Youre homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

*

Invitation...

2007-11-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

Hhhmm...Was invited to SEA Games in Thailand...should I go?....Still thinking...

At last...

2007-11-05T09:30:00.000+08:00

1 step down, another to go. Rushing for editing now. Hope everything goes well so I can 'sau kong kor nien'. Hahaha...Yahoo!!!

Favourite Movie...

2007-10-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

Butterfly Effect....a movie I've watched few years back and recently I watched it again. Don't know why, I still find it facinating after watching it the 2nd or 3rd time.....Each time after watching, I always wonder....What's gonna be if I don't exist? Will things be better? Hhhmmm.....What if I can change things in the past? What will happen in the future?...

What if you can change things, what would it be?

Decision...

2007-10-10T11:17:00.000+08:00

To stay or to leave?...

Don't know...

2007-08-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

hhmmm...dying soon...who can help??????

A Rank Higher...

2007-08-25T07:42:00.000+08:00

Yahoo....pass my exam d....but need to be sharper and accurate :(
Have to practice harder...hehehe

Busy and meaningful last weekend...

2007-08-25T07:36:00.000+08:00

Orphanage...children without parents. Some of the parents are dead, some are just left them behind and some are child abuse. These are the children I saw last weekend. They range from 4 - 10 years old. Mix races, chinese, malay and indian. All happily living in 1 roof and there are like brothers and sisters among themself. I played and asked questions, trying to get closer with them...and I did, with the youngest. When I 1st time saw her, she was standing alone at the window staring outside. I walk up to her slowly and when she saw me, she smile. I smile back in return and bend down. "What is your name and how old are you?" I've asked. Feeling shy and with a sweet smile she answered, "Dina and I'm 4." In my heart I was wondering, how can any parents left or abuse such adorable kids. I saw scars on their hands, legs and face. My heart ache for a moment but I just kept smiling. We chatted and played awhile.

Before I ended my day, I chatted with the care taker, asking about their condition when they 1st came to the orphanage. Most of them being send in by single mum. Some of them had been abused before. I've ask if they still miss their parents. Surprisingly, none of them wanted to go back.

Well...that's how I spend my weekend....meaningful and satisfied...Will plan to visit again....Definitely will.... ;)

This weekend...

2007-08-14T09:30:00.000+08:00

At last, something I've been wanting to do, will do it this weekend. Charity and play with kids. This weekend will be going to Angels Children Home to help out and to do some martial art demo. Hehehe...Hhhmm..what should I buy for them???....Maybe some junk foods...hahaha...

Another exam...

2007-08-14T09:15:00.001+08:00

Hhmmm...another exam coming. This Wednesday 15th August 2007. Good Luck to me. Will try my very best. hehehe...

Thank you....

2007-07-10T18:09:00.000+08:00

Been extreamly busy past months. Finally I could catch some breath. Fell sick. Doc said over work and stress. Too many activities around I think. hahaha....Now slowly recovering. To my friends who call me constantly, concerning my health, I'm happy to receive your calls, at least I know I'm still in your mind and heart. I thank you.

Friends come and go along in my life. Some may have known for years but never came close to become friends. Just someone that u know, say hi or bye when bump into each other. Some may have known for just few months but got close instantly and become good friends. Friends that talk about everything and anything. Some may still become close although not seeing each other but unfortunately some may not. Some may be close at the earlier stage of friendship but if its not in contact, it'll become stranger again.....This is what I felt these days.

I would like to apologise to those I've known and neglected. I will try my best to keep in contact, to help whoever needed 1....

But again, I might not be around long enough to know you better, to become good friends again to those who I felt like a stranger. But I can assure you 1 thing, when I think back at the time we spend together, I really had good times and good laughs together. And I thank you.

Working....

2007-06-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

Back to busy schedule again...thought could calm down for awhile. But its ok. I can manage. I have to. Gambate!! Hahahaa...

Being Sick...

2007-06-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

Hhhmmm....being sick for few days. Out of a sudden I was being so tired and restless. Then I was having major tooth ache. The 1 I can't stand and hated most. I can't seat, sleep, stand and eat. I wasn't talking or smilling. No one in the office dare to approach me. My face was like bitter gourd...hehehe...but I was being pampered like small kid....kakaka...The pain was killing me. My body was very warm. Then they found out that I was having fever. Still having it now. Aiyeeerrr.. Hhhhmmm....how blur of me...Maybe I haven't been having fever for so long, doesn't know how it feels like already...

The sad part is, I can't eat alot of food now...wuuuaaahhhh....when will I'll have my lovely food back???.....sob...sob...sob....now my only happy moments gone....F**K....hhmmm....maybe in a way its good, can go on diet...hehehe...

Back from holiday...

2007-06-08T10:45:00.000+08:00

Just back from holiday again hahaha....Pulau Pemanggil, located somewhere near Pulau Tioman. Stayed in Lanting Resorts. It was a long journey but worth it. Hahahah...From mainland to the island itself took one and half hour, which they say using speed boat but it feels like a ferry kakaka...but not too bad la. Of all the resorts that I've stayed, this is the most classic ones. It was amazing. The resorts was build 10years ago by the owner himself and few other people, who is now working in the resort as cooks, waiters and boatmen. This is what I called multi tasking...hehehe....Well...It was build with only woods and was build on really big rocks. The decorations was old pictures of their ancestors, old bottles, jars, clocks, cameras, cutlerys and etc. Basically every old things and I mean very old and every old things that u want to find. The stair cases that they have are more than 45 degree steep. (I cursed everytime when I had to climb it..hehehe..but its exciting too.) ;) They have 2 types of room. Twin sharing and long house. The twin sharing can accomodate 3 ppl, the long house could accomodate 6 or 8 people. The twin sharing rooms has a bathroom and a ceiling fan. Where the long house has to share the bathrooms and it has 2 ceiling fans.

The island itself could only receive 019 and 013 signals, so most of my friends and me was on a total holiday coz all of us using 012, no signals, no calls...kekeke...if its emergency the resort has 1 public phone also la ;) As usual, most of the time we went snorkeling and fishing in the island and other islands. One of the island is Pulau Dayang. The beach was good and the water was quiet clear. Actually it was the most daring, longest and furthest snorkeling I've ever been. To me la. ;) Well, I've always has phobia being in the sea, cause I was drown twice. I wouldn't feel safe and secure when my legs couldn't touch the ground. That day I snorkel for at least 3 hours, about 1 or 2 km off shore and was alone most of the time. At 1st was scary but manage to overcome my fear hehehe....

Well, overall trip was tired but enjoyable. Photos, will post later in friendster. ; ) My next adventure, water rafting..hahaha...

Finally Ended.

2007-06-01T08:13:00.000+08:00

At last, the project that have been ongoing since chinese new year has ended. Now time to relax and concerntrate in my competition. All the best and Good Luck to me...

My 1st Competition...

2007-05-29T06:19:00.000+08:00

Hhhmmm...8th July, my 1st martial art competition at Japanese Club. Only 1 month to train. Am I ready? Exciting but fear. Hopefuly I won't break any hands and legs or get broken.

It's fighting time...

...........

2007-05-20T19:00:00.000+08:00

What's next???????????

Anger..

2007-05-18T10:00:00.000+08:00

Stress, Angry, having bad gastric again, need to be calm, need to get help...who?

好久不見

2007-05-17T07:30:00.000+08:00

也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見
沉默了

曾經我打聽過
你最近的生活
忙碌工作之餘是否有運動

今天和昨日不同
我不在你身旁
不甘寂寞的你是不是很難過

至於我過的
還不錯不如以前瘋
那一家迪斯可我再也沒去過

天涼了掛念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的捨不得

和你的記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見
沉默了

我希望是一片雲朵
飄到你的天空
安安靜靜地望著你是否快樂

只能這樣了
不打擾你平靜生活
親愛的我在這兒祝你平安喜樂

天涼了掛念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的捨不得

和你的記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見
沉默了

天涼了掛念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的捨不得

和你的記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見
沉默

My 1st Annual Dinner...

2007-05-07T01:33:00.001+08:00

At last 5th May 2007, 25th Anniversary of our mother company. It was hetic but fun. The final output of so call memory video was out. The managing director was satisfied and as well as the managing director from other country and employee of the company.

The most scary part was, I'm being pushed up to the stage to receive an complimentry award. Something never change..hahaha..I was shaking and blushed like a little kid. Imagine a roast pig..kakaka...I had this feeling when I was 14, receiving prizes infront of the entire schoolmates. Heart pumping really fast. Nervous. Hahaha...

There were perfomance, singing and lucky draw. Hhhmmm...no prizes for me..but its ok attracted some pretty girls to take photo..hahaha...it was fun. Then the whole gang went karaoke at time square. We sang from 12am to 4am...wow..I couldn't believe myself.
I thought I will drop dead tired after dinner but I was still awake and hyper.
Look's like I'm still young...in heart...kakaka...

Well...there goes my weekend...relax, fun and tired..;)

How was yours? :)

My Body...

2007-04-26T02:15:00.000+08:00

At last body and mind broke down...but no worries heart still pumping strong, not giving up easily. Will stand to the battle till the last breath....

Philosophy...

2007-04-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

"Half for one's own happiness, and half for the happiness of others."
-Doshin-

hmmm...mine seems like happiness of other, its own happiness...am I wrong???

A Song...

2007-04-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

A song that I've not hear for a long time. When I listen back 3 days ago on radio, I just drive, wondering around.

She's always on my mind, from the time i wake up 'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

Though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger every day
and even now she's gone
I'm still holding on

So tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
Maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

chorus

heaven knows

12th April 2007....

2007-04-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

Time fly...2 years has passed. Still remember what I've written in 12th April 2006. Anticipating what will happen in 12th April 2007. Have I changed? What have I achieved? Did I improve or I'm getting worse? Things I monitor in me for the past 1 year...
Time to review myself...; )

Work wise...
Happy and tired. Have a, can be consider my own office. Nice enviroment. Business at the moment getting good. But I've targeted more. Greedy hahaha...Many more to come hahaha...

Personal wise...
1. Took up martial art which I'm proud off, Hopefully I could attend the World Gathering in 2009 at Jakarta. I'll definately will attend. (if I'm still around ;) )
2. Improve on communication skill coz sees too many clients at the same time. Handle alot of 'difficult' people around.
3. Getting good in balancing between working and resting.
4. Getting more patient (don't know if it good or bad).
5. Concerning more about my health.
6. More daring and advanturous. Hahaha...which is good.
7. Relationship..........feeling still the same. Maybe the way has changed. But definately the feeling is the same.

Overall, not too bad. There's a chinese saying 'to compare to the upper level people, I'm not good enough, but to compare to the unfortunate people, I am good... : )

Working...

2007-04-11T13:40:00.000+08:00

24 hours non stop....how far more I could go?

These months...

2007-04-08T03:18:00.001+08:00

Hhhmmm...been abandon my blog lately....hahaha...not that I stop writting but I choose to write down my stuff in a traditional way, paper and pen. Traditional way is still the best...hahaha..

Been super busy since after chinese new year. Working non stop. Day and nite. Sometimes wondering when can it stop...but once its stop, I will start worrying again. Better busy than sitting around doing nothing I guess hahaha....

Nothing much besides working all the time and learning martial art. : ) The 1 thing I always looking forward to, martial art class. A place where I am force to have full concentration. If not seniors and 'si fu' will break my arms and legs. Although I have bruises after every class, but it was fun. A sport that I wanted to learn 20 years ago. :)

Well, its not to late to learn as long as you'll have the heart. Age does not matter, the most important is are you dare or willing to start from bottom. :)

Valentine's Day...

2007-02-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

A valentine is a sweetheart
who will wrap their arms around u
and will give u a hug whenever u need it.

A valentine is someone who always has u in mind.
Someone who is not afraid of what other people think.
Someone who isn't afraid to be with u.

A valentine is someone who will cherish u.
A valentine is someone who will protect you from any harm.

Valentine is not necessary only for couple. It can be celebrated with friends, good friends...
I had my valentine keep safely in my heart and always will be...

Wish all the couples and single people Happy Valentine's Day and may you found happiness forever...

Sudden Mood this evening...

2007-02-08T13:00:00.000+08:00

?????? Blank.....hhmmm...

Life and living was never alone. There are lots of things no matter you like it or not, you still have to do. Hhhmm...being too independent for too long. Too tired. Sometimes I wish I could depend on someone no matter what.....but unlikely I could do so....

Maybe 1 day up to a certain extend, I would leave everything behind and leave the country. Leaving everything behind.....

Really tired.....

My X'mas wishes...

2006-12-15T15:33:00.001+08:00

What I want for Christmas, I know I will never get.
So I guess it is almost useless to wish for a corvet.
This wish I really wanted.
I am not materialistic, never have been…

If I was granted a wish, it would not be for myself.
Never was the selfish kind, always giving to everyone else

Actually not everyone, but only one...
I am going to share with you, the only thing that I desire.
I don’t want money, car or need a mansion to retire.

One wish...One heart....One dream...
The only thing I want for Christmas is happiness.
Not mine, but for yours, the one I love and care always.
May you always be blessed with happiness, love and care from
the one you love…

Merry Christmas and May the abundance of good tidings
and cheer be felt during this Holiday and the coming of the New Year!!

This is my prayers to you…

Memories...

2006-12-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

Listen to some old songs lately...Brings back memories...this is one of my favourite song...

一生中最爱

如果痴痴的等某日终于可等到一生中最爱
谁介意你我这段情每每碰上了意外不清楚未来
何曾愿意我心中所爱
每天要孤单看海

宁愿一生中都不说话都不想讲假话欺骗你
留意到你我这段情你会发觉间隔着一点点距离
无言地爱我偏不敢说
说一句想跟你一起

oooh ooh
如真如假如可分身饰演自己
会将心中的温柔献出给你唯有的知已
如痴如醉还盼你懂珍惜自己
有天即使分离我都想你我真的想你

宁愿一生中都不说话都不想讲假话欺骗你
留意到你我这段情你会发觉间隔着一点点距离
无言地爱我偏不敢说
说一句想跟你一起

oooh ooh
如真如假如可分身饰演自己
会将心中的温柔献出给你唯有的知已
如痴如醉还盼你懂珍惜自己
有天即使分离我都想你我真的想你

如真如假如可分身饰演自己
会将心中的温柔献出给你唯有的知已
如痴如醉还盼你懂珍惜自己
有天即使分离我都想你我真的想你
如果痴痴的等某日终于可等到一生中最爱

Back from Holiday...

2006-11-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm back to KL...

Hong Kong. Not really my 1st choice of holiday place but some close friends over there. So, might as well go over and visit them. And I need a break too.

Lots of people said that HK people wasn't friendly, but actually its the opposite way. Maybe I'm a tourist so they treated me quiet well. Get to know some new friends, taiwanese and hongkies. :)
Friendly. Food there are fantastic. Especially their deserts. Kindda sweet but overall nice. Transportation are very convenien but most of the time I travel buy 'bus 11'....(foot....hehehe). As usual, I was like a mischivious kid wondering around alone and got lost...kekeke...no worries, manage to find my way back if not I won't be writting my blog... ; )...

Disneyland... good, nice and pretty...felt like a small kid again. Watched all the shows. The coolest one was the 3D show. The most nicest of all is the fireworks in the evening. Remind me of someone...someone who would just starre at the fireworks and smile. Smile happily and pretty. 'How I wish you were here'...my heart says. Well....

...the fireworks lasted for 15mins. There goes 1 day of my holiday. : ) Being a playfull kid, hehehe, I went to Ocean Park. More fun. More show and games....yahooo.....played all the exiciting games...roller coaster, railway tracks, space something & etc...hehehe...saw my beloved dolphins and sea lions....and panda bear...real panda bear. Unfortunately only saw 1 the other sleeping in the hut :(...overall...fun and tiring...another day gone...

The next day, Macau...hhmmm....nice place, historical place...never knew they use different currency. Lucky HK dollar are useable but have to make sure that they dun give u back in Macau currency when you buys stuffs. Its not useable in HK Island. I walk most of the time in Macau. Went to see the most famous gate, the museum, the churches and walk around small lanes....No worries those small lanes are full of people. Just have to becareful of the wallet. Bought the famous almond biscuits, ate the portugese tarts and bought clothes for my little precious. Nice people around. Chat with few of them, shanghainese...kekeke...I spoke in Mandarin and they understood hahaha...My mandarin is not that bad afterall...hahaha...They are friendly and polite. Its worth visiting or even spend a nite there....hhmmm...another day passed....

From highrise buildings, crowded area to lowrise housses and not so crowded area. 'Cheong Chow', a totally different place from HK. Its just like you went into nice kampung resort. Guess what I did... My friends and I cycle around the island. We went to the highest peak of the Island...I am surprise that I'm able to push the bicycle all the way up to the hill top... kakaka...The view was really relaxing, windy and cold too. But yet I'm sweating...lucky didn't catch cold hehehe....Ate seafood, local made 'kuih' and etc...hehehe...good. Really good. The stuff over at Cheong Chow are much cheaper. : ) We cycle from 12noon till evening around 6pm...Tiring but really had fun..

Oh well....most of the time I've spend in HK Island. Walking around, hunting for food...Things are not cheap over in HK. Didn't buy much. I think the only stuff I bought for myself is 2 shirts. Other than that are sourveniers for my parents and friends. Only food interest me...hehehe...
Most of the people speaks cantonese, not much people speaks mandarin or english. And when Hongkies speaks english, I couldn't understand a word...but overall...its a good visit, not that relax but not too bad. At least the trip lessen some of my work stress and got off some small little little things that stuck in my mind.

Will go over there again, to hunt for food. : )...Hhhm...Pop up once in my mind...thought of working over there actually...fell in love with the food there...hahaha...but if there's a good job opportunity...I will go over...

For information..didn't take any pictures, not even 1, as I know. Got scolded by friends...hhaha...dun really wanna take pictures actually....maybe I just wanna feel it in my heart...not in my memories...

Sorry...gals...

Travel....

2006-11-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

Another 2 more days will be away from KL. Be away for 8 days. Such along time never had a proper holiday. But yet till now, doesn't feel anything at all. The only thing I know now, I have to finish up whatever jobs that's outstanding. Worrying if my collegue be able to do the job.

Think about it again, I have to let them to be independent. Let alot of things to be independent. Flow naturally. Let them grow up. Let them take some responsibilities. Its the only way to get experience and learn from mistakes...

Will try my best to relax for my upcoming holiday....

My Senses.....

2006-10-29T09:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I think I am gifted. Sometimes I think its a curse. Some people said knowing more things can increase your knowledge. People told me I have a very strong sense. But I would say, know what you should know is good, sense things at the right moment, the right time is benefit.

Sensed something wrong lately. Sense the feeling from the one I love even stronger. Sensed that I might be the cause of a couple argument. Hope it's wrong. But......out of my 10 senses almost most of them are right. If I'm lucky, only 1 would went wrong. Unfortunately, I'm not a very lucky person. Not in these sense. Hope it's wrong, is just only an excuse that I usually use to ease my heart. But...I know very well, everytime it would ended up true.....

Finding a person you love is easy, but finding a person you love which also love you at the same time is very difficult. I know what I should do. Happiness will always be with you...both of you....

似水流年

2006-10-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

望著海一片滿懷倦無淚也無言
望著天一片只感到情懷亂
我的心又似小木船
遠景不見但仍向著前
誰在命裏主宰我
每天掙扎人海裏面

心中感嘆似水流年
不可以留住昨天
留下祇有思念一串串永遠纏
浩瀚煙波裏我懷念懷念往年
外貌早改變處境都變情懷未變

A movie call Love Story....

2006-10-20T15:03:00.000+08:00

Long time since I didn't watched movie. Been occupied, either working or playing sports. Decided to catch a movie last Sunday with couple of friends.

Hhhmm...maybe it's my understanding towards movie has become bad. I don't seems to understand this movie. It makes me very confusing.

Some people say love is a very beautiful thing. No doubt about it. But for me or most of the people, love is beautiful only when the people you love, love you in return. This is the fact of life...

Moment of time....

2006-09-30T15:30:00.000+08:00

Time flys. An other 3 months year 2006 is gone. Before you know it the begining of 2007 appears. Then comes Chinese New Year, and after that half of 2007 has gone. People comes in and out of my life. Old friends, new friends, new collegue, old collegue.

By then friends and love ones who are study in overseas will come back for holiday and to see their love ones. Couples will be wondering if their love ones still the same? Do they still have the heart for each other?

They will be. As long as both parties understand each other. As long as both of you still have the heart for each other. Time will passes. Both of you are blessed.

No worries....happiness will be with you always....

And always will be.....

Silence....

2006-09-24T10:19:00.000+08:00

No one will ever know. No one can ever know. No one will ever realize. Will be forever in silence. Only be known by ownself.....

My 31st Birthday...

2006-09-09T09:40:00.000+08:00

Time flies...Its been 31 year. Been living 31 year. Think of it what have I achived so far, I've been a very fortunate person. Family still living healthily. I have lots of friends. Good friends since childhood and working friends, which they concern about me more than I concern for myself. :) I have a career. Still working on it. Step by step. Relationship.....a total failure and dissapointment.

Each year on my birthday, things happened. Good, bad, happy, sad. Each year family and friends would ask me to make a wishes. Each year I wished for the same wish. It does comes true actually, seeing the people beside me.

Each year I only wish for my love ones to be healthy, safe and happy, every where they go and who ever they with.

Happiness will always be with you.

千里之外

2006-08-27T04:15:00.002+08:00

屋簷如懸崖風鈴如滄海我等燕歸來時間被安排演一場意外
妳悄然走開故事在城外濃霧散不開看不清對白妳聽不出來
風聲不存在是我在感慨夢醒來是誰在窗台把結局打開
那薄如蟬翼的未來經不起誰來拆
我送妳離開千里之外妳無聲黑白沉默年代或許不該太遙遠的相愛
我送妳離開天涯之外妳是否還在琴聲何來生死難猜用一生去等待

聞淚聲入林尋梨花白只得一行青苔天在山之外雨落花台
我兩鬢斑白聞淚聲入林尋梨花白只得一行青苔天在山之外
雨落花台我等妳來一身琉璃白透明著塵埃妳無瑕的愛
妳從雨中來詩化了悲哀我淋濕現在芙蓉水面采船行影猶在
妳卻不回來被歲月覆蓋妳說的花開過去成空白夢醒來是誰在窗台把結局打開那薄如蟬翼的未來經不起誰來拆

我送妳離開千里之外妳無聲黑白沉默年代或許不該太遙遠的相愛
我送妳離開天涯之外妳是否還在琴聲何來生死難猜用一生去等待

Wanted...

2006-08-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

nice dinner - upset dinner
encourage word - dissapointed answer
free - trap
relax - busy
energetic - tired
smiling - frustration
group - alone
tough - soft
understanding - not understanding
stand still - may fall anytime...

Is it my problem or I have too much expectation or I should let it be and follow what people say and don't have opinion or decision of my own.............

...

2006-07-19T13:27:00.000+08:00

Things that are done, it is needless to speak about...things that are past, it is needless to blame.

Best wishes to you...

2006-07-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

Had dinner with you yesterday. Its been quite long time since we spend time together. Nervous in the afternoon and had weird sense. Glad to see you, glad to hear your voice. No doubt my sense are, you have found the one you love.

Saw the sweetness in your heart, the happiness in your smile when you told me you are with her. Now my time has come to put down whatever I believe that I could give you, happiness, care and love as partner, that once I thought I would be given a chance to be. I believe she will love, care, bring joyness and happiness to you more than I do. I will always stay as a supporter to you. To cheer you up when you needed one, to lead a shoulder to cry on when you needed one, to care and guide you when you needed one.

Best Wishes and Happiness always to two new couple. It takes two people to but a relationship but it only takes one to end it. Appreciate each other, try to talk and settle when problem occur and never bring it up again. Compromise with each other and never compare love. With these in mind you will have a beautiful and lasting relationship. Remember its easy to find someone you love, but to find someone you love and love you in return its hard. To maintain the relationship its the hardest. Happy to hear that you've found someone you love and love you in return.

Your gf is very lucky to have you. All the best to you from the bottom of my heart. I will always be around if you needed someone to talk to and to do anything at all. : )

Love You Always....

Past Days..

2006-07-08T11:40:00.000+08:00

Past days has been busy but still have time to do my own things and went partying too. Mambo Jumbo night, the 80s music. My kind of music and my age of music. Been dancing that night. Hahhah...haven't been dancing for quiet sometime. Used to dance for hours, when I was in my 20s and the next day still goes to work with full of energy. Now in my 30s, I still can dance but not for hours and the next day, kindda sleepy hahahaa....

I guess there are certain things that age does a matter. Hhhmmm...There are 2 friends in the age of 20s has muscle pain the next day after dancing but surprisingly I'm ok. Hahaha...looks like they have the body of 30s or more, in the age of 20s and I have the body of 20s in the age of 30s...

Funny...hahahaa.....

Busy Saturday Relax Sunday...

2006-07-03T11:15:00.000+08:00

Friday 30th June 06, watched a movie, last minute. Tokyo drift...entertaining, nice car, sexy girls and nice stunt. After movie, went home n sleep.

Saturday 1st July 06, finally had house warming after 4 months staying in. Had a small little advance birthday party for 1 of my friend. Had steam boat and drinking session. Prepared around 15pax of food, but ended up only 10 people eating. Kindda dissapointed not every invited people turn up. But it's ok, everybody is happy. I'm happy. They got drunk and slept over.

Sunday 2nd July 06, woke up, went for an hour swim, went to meet another friend for lunch, met my parents and my little nephew, went home to clean up the house after yesterday party, cooked dinner, watched 2 movies (dvd) and sleep. Hmm...not a relax Sunday after all, but at least I'm not working.

(Thanks to the bunch of friends that accompanied me on Saturday and Sunday.)

Favourite and Meaningful Song to me....

2006-06-30T16:07:00.000+08:00

最好有生一日都愛下去
但誰人能將戀愛當做終生興趣

生活其實旨在找到個伴侶
面對現實熱戀很快變長流細水

可惜我不智或僥倖
對火花天生敏感

不過兩隻手拉得太緊
愛到過了界那對愛人
同時亦最易變成一對敵人

也許相愛很難
就難在其實雙方各有各寄望怎麼辦

要單戀都難
受太大的禮會內疚卻也無力歸還

也許不愛不難
但如未成佛升仙也會怕愛情前途黯淡

愛不愛都難
未快樂先有責任給予對方面露歡顏

得到浪漫又要有空間
得到定局卻怕去到終站
然後付出多得到少不介意豁達
又擔心有人看不過眼

無論熱戀中失戀中
都永遠記住第一戒
別要張開雙眼

What do I feel?

2006-06-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday a close friend asked, that girl kindda pretty and talented. Is she attached? I've asked if he's interested. He answered kind of...I smile and said, yes she is a beautiful girl, a very beautiful girl and she's still available. He looks surprise and interested. Looks like she has another admirer.

(The girl? Is the one I love...)

2006-06-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

Things comes and goes,
Why wouldn't it stay?
Why wouldn't it be secure?
It's really difficult,
It's really heart breaking,
Just wish and hope,
Wish something good to happen,
Hope something better in future...

(lost 2 business at the same time)

...

2006-06-25T06:30:00.000+08:00

Life - Death
Love - Hate
Happy - Sad
Friend - Stranger,
Relax - Stress
Win - Loose
Woman - Man
Young - Old
Rich - Poor
Single - Married
Simple - Complicated
Successful - Fail
Play - Stop
Working - Sleeping
Morning - Night
Laughing - Crying
War - Peace
Bright - Dark
.....etc

All things has positive but at the same time it has negative...Its the balance of life in everythings....Nature....

Lost or Stolen?

2006-06-21T11:00:00.000+08:00

Was angry and upset this morning. The 6 puppies which are at my office had gone. Thought it has been located by the mother but it seems that it was looking for her young ones too...We been asking the people around but none of them know where it all went. Are they still alive? Are they being stolen? I wonder....

It's kindda upset, looking at the mother, searching high and low for her children. A mother who lost 6 children in a night. The puppies are still very young. Barely walk and their eyes are still close tight.

Wish and hope that you all are in good hands.
Farewell my 6 little puppies.

Condolenses to my family members....

2006-06-20T10:06:00.000+08:00

Got a bad news yesterday. My cousin sister gave birth to a baby girl last 2 weeks but unfortunately she passed away after 10 days of struggling. She was borned with a hole in her heart. A name that I haven't know. A niece that I haven't seen. News that I heard alot from outsider and read from news paper, but wouldn't think that it'll happen within my family members. Its sad.

A wonderful life, that she didn't get a chance to experience. Growing up, being love by parents and family member, fall in love and growing old with the one you love. Maybe this is what you call faith. Nothing more I could do and say, a simple word to my cousin sister and a niece that I haven't got a chance to see....

To my cousin sister...

The Road ahead may seem long...
But let faith take you by the hand
and guide you through these difficult times.
Remember...
This too shall pass.

To my niece...

To the world you are just a baby
with wide eyed innocence.

As we pray with heavy hearts
you portrayed courage, strength and determination
that never wavered.

To the world you are just a baby
with wide eyed innocence.

As they watched helplessly
you grew weaker and weaker your spirit never waning,
An angel guided on a painful dark path.

To the world you are just a baby
with wide eyed innocence.

While we rejoice in the healing
you rose above the injustice that was given
to shine more brilliantly than ever before.

To the world you are more than a child
but a true hero of life!

Although I haven't met you, but you'll be always in the hearts of your uncles and aunties...

The Rescue Mission...

2006-06-15T12:56:00.000+08:00

Last Satuday 10th June 2006, a stray dog near my office car park gave birth to 6 cute little puppies. They are really adorable. Seeing the place is so dirty and wet, we took an empty box and place those puppy in. Afraid that the mother would attack us, we waited patiently till the mother went off. One by one I carefully carried them in the box. They are so soft and fragile. Each day I'll provide some food for the mother to eat, hopefully it would have enough strength to feed their young ones. Would like to find a good home for them.

To those who are interested to keep the puppies, you are welcome to write your contacts on the comment box. Bare in mind you have to be loving, caring and treat it as part of your family to take care of them.

Hopefully the 6 little puppies grow up safely, healthy and happy.

I feel...

2006-06-14T04:00:00.000+08:00

...there's a barrier or a huge gap between 2 of us. Felt there's a line between us that you've wouldn't allow yourself and me to crossover. I know you do care for me but you wouldn't allow yourself to do so, in action wise. You know how I felt but you wouldn't want to respond or how to respond because you are afraid. Afraid that each step you take might hurt me. Recently, when I sit down alone and think, I started laughing and heartache too. Laughing because, a simple likeness between 2 person can be so complicated. Heartache, because you've been controlling your action and feelings towards me, as well as mine to you.

I don't wheather you realize, you are not yourself when you with me alone or with few friends. But I realize. I start asking myself, am I too sensitive? I might be abit too sensitive, but somehow you do change your atitude towards me.

If you got the chance to read this blog, I wanted you to know that please don't change yourself towards me. It's heartache to see that you are not really you when you see me. If you change to let your heart feel better. I'll be more than happy to help you. If seeing me reminds you of your mistake (if you consider what you've done is a mistake, not that I know off) and felt heartache, I rather not to see you. I love you the way you are. The person itself.

I'm sorry I can't stop my heart from loving you. I know it would be difficult you. I really hope I can ease your heart. I've have promise myself and except the fact, to love you with a open and with a happy heart, eventhough we can't be together. Will try my best to cut down on my cigaratte, as promise. : )

Hope that can have dinner with you 1 day. Just 2 of us.

Take good care....*hugs & kisses & white rose* for you, my princess....

My time....

2006-06-10T10:00:00.000+08:00

Been quiet busy today. Finally finish up the outstanding work.
Sometimes to certain people, they'll think I'm a person who like to drag my work to last minute. I admit that. But do they know most of the time I perform better when it's last minute. I think better and I work better too. A friend told me that I'm very bad in time management. I'm not bad in time management, its just that sometimes I prefer to do the things that I like, things which I consider its more important than my work, eventhough its just only accompany someone to dinner, buying things or even working. But do they know or do they understand?...

Lately....

2006-06-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

Hey, how are you? Haven't been talking to you lately. How you've been? I'm kindda free these days. Free for a movie or dinner? Sometimes these are some simple question that I wanted to ask her but sometimes its just so hard to let it out. Or I'm rather too afraid to ask. Afraid that my questions are unattended or rejected or its useless to ask because I've already know the answer.

I'm trying to build back a friendship that we once had. I know it'll be difficult for me and for her. Still trying my very best to do so. The past cannot be change but the future we can create. Still trying to control my deepest feeling. Will keep on trying my best to control, for her happiness as well as mine too.

Alot of people says, that being together with friends is better than being with your partner. At 1st I would agree half of the statement but as time goes by I would agree more. I've seen the happiness in her when she's with friends around. I've seen it. I've felt it too. When I see her smile, deep in my heart I smile too. Something I realize myself, I'm not a good partner.
Not to anyone as well as to her.

"Take care and becareful everywhere you go. Sleep tight and sweet dreams every night. My guardian angel will keep you safe and warm through out the day and night" : )

My Memories 1...

2006-06-02T11:36:00.000+08:00

Been really tired lately. Constantly feeling dizzy and having major migrain. Some say I'm having low blood pressure, but I think I'm kindda lack of sleep. Been working too hard. Haven't have the balance of life.

Read a blog, asking wheather have watched someone close to me sleep? I did. Its very sweet indeed. Its an explainable feeling I had. At that time, no matter how tired and exausted I am, when I sees her sleep soundly, it eventualy kill my tiredness and all the frustration I had. She somehow taught me the reason I'm working for and its all worth it although its just a silents one.

'My guardian angel, please keep my princess away from all harm. Keep her company whenever she needs one. Thank you'

Living The Life You Want...

2006-06-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

As you grow up, sometimes its not the matter of want or don't want. Its the matter of things you have to do wheather like it or not.

You are leaving the job people dying to have because many people only see the outer beauty of your company. They haven't gone what u've been through. If you think you couldn't see your future in the company or don't feel any achivement, do move on.

Career...Plays a big part of your life. Its a thing that you wanna achive. Some may consider it's the purpose of living or life. Some may consider it's a focus point or what you want to become.

I believe all parents wanted their children to live happily, healthy and safe. They wanted you to choose your own life that. They wouldn't expect anything more from their children. What we can do is do our best, live our life happily and take care of them as much as we can.

Take good care of yourself, which means taking good care of your family. U are not living alone in this world. U have responsibilities towards yourself, your family and friends.

Everyone want to live their life that they want. But how many of them can fully live their own life? You can choose living a life that you want but at the same time you have to be practical too.

There is no wrong or right in living. Its up to you to decide wheather is this the path you want to choose. Is this the risk you want to take or the risk you dare to take. Once choosen, you have to face all the conciquences that comes with no regrets. Only to learn from mistake. Only to move forward. This is the experience of living.

I know by saying is always far more easy than to implement. To get it started is the hardest of all. But remember you have friends and family to help and support you. Give it a try when every opportunity comes, be it a job, a relationship or study. At least you've try.

But again, this is just my opinion and POV. Some people might think differently.

PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON

2006-05-26T01:45:00.000+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime person.When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need hasbeen met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Feeling of my heart, Voice in my head...

2006-05-23T08:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I didn't realize or understand...the more you love the person, the more you hurt and harm the person you love. I couldn't really understand until a good friend explain and reminded me. She said "If you want her to be happy, let her go...Let her live the life that she wanted. If you want her to be happy, just let go what you are holding on." I've been thinking...All these while, are my intention or my action towards you, wrong? Are my way of loving and caring you wrong? Create pressure to you? Pressure till everytime you see me you would have the feeling of don't know what to do with me...Feeling disturb? or Having the feeling of hate?

My way of loving people might not be wrong but to you it is. Wanted to treat the best I can but...the more I'm good to you, the more I hurting you eventhough I didn't aspect anything in return. I'm indirectly creating pressure to you. I understand that now.

I don't want this to happen. I wanted to leave a good impression, a nice and memorable impression in your heart. I love you, want you to be happy and have a new start more than anything in the world. Not feeling pressure and guilty when think of me or see me.

I will still love you...but only silently...wheather can our relationship be develope, I'm not regret of what I've done...only regret on what I couldn't do for you.

If friends around ask, "Have you fall in love or been a relationship before?" I would say, "Yes I have. I've been deeply in love with this beautifull angel princess. Although she didn't love, haven't or may not have a start with me, but she has gave me the most happiest and sweestest moment and it's the most precious for me."

I Love You Always.....

The Real Me?

2006-05-21T14:47:00.000+08:00

Some may say they knew me, some may say they are close to me.
Most of them who know me, I am a happy go luck person, always taking care of other people, loyal and nice to chat with...sometimes I think, am I a good person?
Am I good enough for anyone to be with? Most of the time I think no...But lucky enough I'm good enough to my parents...

I may be happily smilling to the people around but do they know the truth behind these smilling faces? Do they know the real me?
What I did before? How I felt?
Do they understand me? Do they know what I want in life?

I may say, some of them really do...but very few...very few indeed....

Feeling better?

2006-05-18T10:52:00.000+08:00

Do you feel better after chatting?
I wonder...
Really hope you do...Sometimes know a person feeling is one thing...to know it from the particular person itself, is the most important thing. You are the most important person in my life besides my family and the best moment that happend to me. Your words means everything to me.
Here is 2 songs dedicated to you....

You'll Shine Again
I know that you've been watching over me
You're up so high the brightest in the sky
You know that every night I pray my soul for you
Tomorrow won't be as blue

Girl I hope you can understand
That the song will always shine again
(That my love for you will never end)
Now that you've found your way onto a better day

You'll shine again x 2
Give you strength and love to fight the days ahead
I see the light see the rainbow
See the beauty that's within you
You'll shine again
You are so beautiful

I know that you've been watching over me
You're up so high the brightest in the sky
You know that every night I pray my soul for you
Tomorrow won't be as blue

Girl I hope you can understand
That the song will always shine again
(That my love for you will never end)
Now that you've found your way onto a better day

You'll shine again x 2
Give you strength and love to fight the days ahead
I see the light see the rainbow
See the life
I promise you'll be there
There's no reason to be scared

You'll shine again
You'll find your life
Find your reason
Everything will be alright
for tomorrow just begining of your life...

Never let you go
The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all I dreamed of now it seems so dark

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing for me to do now
but to give in

If you gave me one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and you know, I'd never let you go
x2

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day
I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance to share the sunset
our one last romance

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing for me to do now
but to give in

If you gave me one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and you know, I'd never let you go...
x2

The words that I've been praying every night before I sleep...
"My guardian angel, protect her from all harm. Grant her with
all the things that she wished for. Give her care and love whenever
she needs and who ever she in love with. Thank you..."

Love you always...my princess...

My feeling, My Moment

2006-05-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

Been feeling quiet down and empty lately. Sometimes when I sit down alone, tears starts rolling down my cheek. Misses those days. Misses you alot. Misses those sms you send, eventhough just a simple good nite greetings. Wanted to gain back the fun time time we had, but don't know how. May be it's time for me to let go. Not because I want to but force to.

My feelings to you is truth and sincere. I love you very much and it'll always remain in my heart, eventhough its just a short time. I know you'll be happier with the person you love. Not the person you like. Not me. I would only be by your side.

Here I wish you have a person who can take care and love you better than I do. Sincere wish from my heart. I love you always.

What has remain?

2006-05-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

What has remain between you and me.
A close friend, a relationship that hasn't been started or a relationship that will not start at all or just be a very normal friend who only just says 'Hi' or 'Bye'.

1 year and 4 months has passed. My heart still remain the same. Wishing, hoping, dreaming that 1 day you'll say 'I love you, let's try to be together and work out a relationship'...By then I'll be the happiest person on earth. But thinking it again, I know it's impossible...It's just a empty hope and dream.

Guess...I'll always remain to be the supporting actress or the one behind the scene...not the main actor...not a chance at all...